You know, so many people been saying “You were single and happy before you met him. If you can do it then, you can do it now as well”. Yea yea that is quite true. It’s like how you were born as an individual and you don’t need someone else in your life to survive. But… honestly?! I can safely say I became happier after I met him. It’s like the feeling of having a soulmate? Someone you love, you adore, someone who knows u inside-out. Someone who’s your lover yet your best friend. Someone I can totally be my true self with and yet wouldn’t be judged. We made each other felt complete, and we were indispensable to one another. I really, really miss those days when we would do nothing but cuddle, watch the tv and keep each other company, days of random funny wrestling, muaythai &fighting, the countless dates and holidays. Days of beingyour girl. It’s quite sucky how the way everything became, how impossible it is to even stay as… friends. The decisions and choices you undertook, is there anything that you would change? Everything’s still fresh in my head, the first time we ever text, our first movie date, first study date, how we got together eventually, our first valentines together, first anniversary, first holiday, our first 7wonders together…. there’s just so many #firsts I had with you, it’s almost impossible to forget each and every one of them, no matter how hard i try. Has this journey really been easy for you? &are you truly happier now?
We ignore each other &try to pretend the other person doesn’t exist, we behave like complete strangers, but is this really how it’s supposed to end? Really? Lovers to friends, flames to dust, why do all good things have to come to an end?
This is just another night of reminiscing the good times, reviving the good memories. I should probably turn in, goodnight world.
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