Saturday, January 07, 2012

The Best Years of our Lives

"Sometimes thing can go right only by first going very wrong."
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The 2 plushies that have been with me the past few years.
The Nemo was a surprise gift given randomly during our FIRST overseas trip, to Redang for diving. Otw back to Singapore, he bought me this plushie from a roadside stall for me to hug while sleeping in the 10hr ride bus. The Piglet was given as part of a X'mas present I think... I love poking the nose inside-out (like in the picture). It'd irritate the hell out of him and he'll pull the nose out. I'll poke it inwards again. (cycle continues) lol
Times like these..

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And the seashells he painstakingly brought back all the way from Cebu back to Sg 2weeks ago. He was so afraid of the shells breaking. But seems like the seashells are much tougher. They aren't as fragile and weak as compared to us, our 5years r/s.

Anyhowz, this song's been accompanying me every single night before I can fall asleep.
Listen to it!! It's real touching. I'd always be in tears at the end of the song :'( Cuz it'd just remind me of so much...


We had the best years of our lives
But you and I would never be the same
September took me by surprise
And I was left to watch the seasons change


It´s been so quiet since you´ve gone
And everyday feels more like a year
Sometimes I wish I could move on
The memories would all just disappear


So many things I should've
Said when I had the chance
So many times we took it all for granted


I´d never thought this could ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning


I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning


Looking back on better days
When we were young,
we thought we knew so much
And now it seems so far away
Of wondering if I was good enough


So many things I should´ve
Said when I had the chance
So many times we took it all for granted


I´d never thought we would ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning


I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning


Gone are all the days
When we swore we´d never break
And now I´m left here alone


I´d never thought we would ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning


I´d never thought this could ever end
I´d never thought I´d lose my bestfriend
Everything is different now
Can we stop the world from turning


I´d never thought I´d have to let you go
I´d never thought I´d ever feel this low
I wish I could go back
And we stop the world from turning

I'm sorry my dear friends.
I'm sorry that I just disappeared from every single one of you without any warning. I'm sorry I was uncontactable for 3days. But it touches my heart so much whenever I switched on my phone, the countless missed calls/bbm/whatsapp/texts/tweets from you guys. I'm sorry for making you all worried. I'm sorry for having foolish thoughts. I'm sorry and I love every single one of you who stood by me.
Thanks frolick babygirls Steph Cass Yanzhen Weizhen Huizhen Kareena Cheryl Valentina Wendy Florencia! Love you girls!
Thanks to all my uni peeps esp Jingxuan Gracia Qixuan Stephanie Louie Alex Shaun Nicholas Clarence!
Thanks to all other friends, Eileen Jaime Gw Huiyi Vincent who dropped those lovely texts to cheer me on :)
Thanks Cuzzies Janelle and Derek for being there as well!!
Thanks Weizhen for being so harsh to wake me up. Sorry to make u so pekchek hahaha
I hope I didn't leave anyone out :p
Everyone but you, wished and prayed that I would be okay.

I've decided to open up to the world today, and thanks everyone for... everything. I swear I've never been so busy with my phone this much. Having almost 9 conversations in bbm, 5 in whatsapp, all the texts and countless tweets. *inserts whatsapp shocked emoticon. And everyone asking me out to keep me occupied. Thanks lovelies. *Blows flying kisses

And to those lovely formspringers, thanks for the encouraging words as well. Rest assured I've read every single questions of yours. Just that.... I'm in no mood to answer any :( But i am still checking everyday. So keep your questions coming in, I'll read them :) I'll prolly answer them... another time when I feel like to.

I've also been having this really really bad insomnia the past 3days. I sleep as late as 6am. And I wake up as early as 9 or 10am every day. And I would always wake up in a shock?? I'll be "Is this for real???" and then realised IT IS FOR REAL. Whattheshit. Sigh.

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AND MY LOVELY 2 SISTERS

I'll never ever trade anything for them <3 I love hearing to Dajie's love stories. How she eventually carried on, and now she's happily married. Sometimes I really wonder how people can move on. Perhaps time, can really heal everything. And thanks Erjie for listening to me the entire night last night, all the way till wee hours of 4am.

What's meant to be yours, will eventually be.
 
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On a side note, I'm attending my first ballroom dance practise tmr!!! Hope the d&d will help take my mind off things.
Time to be strong and start meeting more people. But I know a part of me will still always be waiting for him. :(

Oh and I lost weight.
Say hello to a flatter tummy!!! I can no longer inflate and bloat up my tummy anymore :( Sigh I used to compete with him and see whose tummy is rounder :(
Needless to say, I win HANDS DOWN.

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