Saturday, August 14, 2010

Stay Chill

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My bf's pageant photoshoot tgt with his partner! All SMU kids, must support him okokok!!! :D
(wahliew i take picture with him for 3years++, never ever once he smiled until so happily can?! *rolls eyes* haha)


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Ok now, something more serious and also, something saddening for me..

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Just put yourself in my shoes, and tell me, how would you feel after seeing such pictures? Especially when i find out everything MYSELF. B didn't want to tell me because he knew i would kick up a big fuss, but still!!! It'd be so much better for him to tell me HIMSELF than to find it all out by myself, right???? I am not angry with anyone, not the girl, not with B. But just super mega ultra pissed off with the fucking camp committee. WHY ON EARTH MUST U PLAY SUCH GAMES WHEN IT'S AN ORIENTATION?! Can like be more considerate and think of people having gf/bf anot??? For those who have been following me on twitter, or are friends with me in fb, u would have seen my countless tweets on how emogirl1990 i am for the past few days... it wasn't easy for me to get by each and every day, without seeing my boy, getting only a few miserable one-line message. I burst out crying on thurs night after seeing something else in facebook, oh god i think i haven been crying THAT MUCH and THAT LOUD in years.... Met up with B yesterday to talk things out, we are better now though. But honestly, i just can't see him the way as before. He used to be a guy, someone i can say who only has eyes for me. Like, he don't bother looking at pretty girls on the streets, girls trying to know him and he'll be like WHATEVER~ sort, don't hang out with girls, don't club etc. But now, i find him surrounded by so many girls, everyday hanging out with the pageant ppl (of cuz i understand they have to rehearse), texting other girls and now even... a girl fucking LICKING HIS CHEST!!!!! Do you know how much it was a big blow to me?!?!?!?!?!?!??! But thankfully, pageant will be ending in 2weeks time. I just pray and hope that they wouldn't meet up as often as they are now... I really want the past back quickly! I shall be understanding and open, be patient and of cuz, have faith and trust in him.
Love.

Ps: Thanks to all my friends for your TLC on fb/text. Esp to bird, Jac, Rebecca, Stef and not forgetting, Erjie!! :)

11 comments:

  1. Babe, I feel you ): Stay strong!

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  2. hello again! totally understand how it feels to be in your shoes! jiayou and hang in there! and yep, trust him! dont emo already!

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  3. Anon 12.29am: Yep i will ^^

    Soo Boon: Hello babe!! Yea i will... just 2 more weeks!! *RENNNNNN* hahaha! i am MUCH better already, was so emo the past few days i scared everyone u know! lol

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  4. saw your boyfriend at supperclub last saturday. very sure it was him.

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  5. Yep i know he went to Supperclub when i was in Taiwan. bastard right he go without telling me haha. but he said he was with the pageant ppl and that it was part of the pageant activity. ohwell~~

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  6. babe, u really dun have to worry at all! u got everything a girl wants already, looks, figure, and u got brains too! Dun worry, i'm sure ur bf still loves you alot =) cheer up!!!!

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  7. I can't believe my eyes!!! They actually play such games in a uni camp?!??? If i were you, i wldn't forgive them so easily!! It's just too much!!! I feel you. Cheer up babe!! (= No guys are ever worth your tears, i'm sure u wld be able to find a better one than yj! If my boy did tt, i wun forgive him so easily!

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  8. Anon 12.59am: hahaha nooooo me don't really have the looks+figure and def not the brains wor!!! haha if have the brains, i alr go SMU study tgt with my bf already! :O Yep hopefully he still loves me as much as the past :p

    Anon 10.34am: hahaha YES I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES TOO WHEN I SAW THE PICS IN FB!!!! Nearly choked myself to death k...!!!!! lol! and nooooo, i may not know what the future holds for us, but NOW, i really love my bf alot and i just want to be with him! :D I don't want other guyzzz!!
    But actually, u can't blame him/her. I mean... it was like also boh-bian and were kinda forced into it too? If really must be angry, im angry with the ppl who organised this camp and the ppl who planned these game lor! sieh bohliao can!!

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  9. shenny! glad tt everything is gg well now! hang on there! :)- jacinda:)

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  10. glad tt everything is gg well now! hand on there babe!

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  11. Jacinda: NEHNEHHHHH!!!!!! MISS U!!!! and thankssss!! see u soon ok with birdie!! :D

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